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[terriblelynne]

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So, is there anything about me that you've been too embarassed to ask? Any secret crush to tell me about? Any horrible thing you feel the need to tell me? Ultimate freedom in communication...let me know!

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Probably the dumbest thing that will get posted to this entry:

[(Anonymous)]

This is something I've mentioned to persons I know in the past, but I've never gotten an actual answer from the people involved. And, fair warning, this may come across as insulting, though its intent is not as such.

Put briefly, I'm a guy. I try my damndest to be a reasonable person to all people, but when it comes to lesbians, I don't know why, but my mind goes into politeness-overdrive, and I end up trying my hardest to be not-creepy and a sterling example of humanity...not for any reason as idiotic as "luring them back across the line," the thought's never occurred to me. More that I feel that it's my job to counteract whatever they don't like about guys, and prove that I'm A Human Being, or something.

Maybe I've just read too much Hothead Paisan.

Re: Probably the dumbest thing that will get posted to this entry:

[terriblelynne.livejournal.com]

I'm not insulted. Reading this, I don't know if you and I have ever met.

For me, being gay is not about not liking boys at all, it's all about the girl-on-girl action. Socially, I love men. My best friend in the world is a straight guy. I just have no sexual urges towards men unless they're very very VERY androgynous, and even then, it's still a big maybe. It's not about social comfort or socialization preference for me. In general, I think I come across better to guys and am more comfortable around them, and I think that's due to utter absence of sexual attraction/tension. Women make me nervous and scare me but I really really want them anyways. Sometimes I think I'm wired like a pubescent boy. :-/

I have days where I wish I were straight...not because I think my queerness is bad or wrong and not because I have any concerns about assimiliating, but because men seem to find me more likeable and appealing overall, and I don't feel like I need to change or do things differently or not be myself for them.

I go into PC-Overdrive around other lesbians. In the past women have told me that I'm too blunt or forward, that I come on too strong, stuff like that, and that women don't like that, and until recently my success with finding women to date wasn't exactly saying the opposite...so I go into this super-self conscious mode where I'm worried everything I do or say is potentially "wrong" or offensive to women at large in some way I'm just not wired or socialized to understand.

And I've just never gotten Hothead Paisan.

Re: Probably the dumbest thing that will get posted to this entry:

[gailmom.livejournal.com]

"Women make me nervous and scare me but I really really want them anyways. Sometimes I think I'm wired like a pubescent boy. :-/ "

I SO feel you on this one! Anytime I am attracted to a woman I feel the need to get really silly and loud or just quiver in the corner and try not to offend. It really blows....and you would think it would give me more compassion toward the boys who are doing it in response to me, but somehow...lol
Anyway, it makes it REALLY hard to get a chance to date women!

Re: Probably the dumbest thing that will get posted to this entry:

[terriblelynne.livejournal.com]

I was, for the record, a complete nervous wreck when I met you. Yes, that's a compliment.

I do have three girlfriends right now *pinches self* and they all approached me (well, okay, one of them only after I chased her for three years, but still). I'm still vaguely incredulous about that having happened.

And no, that wasn't even remotely dumb. So there.

[rummoses.livejournal.com]

I read your response to Pete Wentz's personal blog regarding his parents' meeting Joe Biden... and I felt incredibly un-smart.

No matter what great grades I get, I still don't seem to possess the intellect and wit that a lot of LJ users have.

This may sound retarded [in which case I'm not surprised], but what the hell's your secret?

<3, M.

[terriblelynne.livejournal.com]

well, now I'M feeling very un-smart...maybe it's someone I just know by an online handle but...who's Pete Wentz? *blushes*

I don't think I'm the world's greatest blogger at all. I'm far too lateral and emotional and I post too damn many memes and song lyrics...